Wander

When the mind begins to wander
where do the thoughts that induce confusion come from?
The chest
the thing that binds the mind
the circuitry sending messages to all the wrong places
crisscross wiring composing a symphony of corrosion
making the senses fail
corrupting the main system of things
shortening the life span of the CPU
frying the motherboard inside
eating the ram
dismantling the the video card altering the vision
the hands typing this going numb
i only wish for one thing
the anti-virus to solve the issue of this virus
like a trojan horse, entering so nicely
and implanting your seed of destruction
with every piece i try to remove
you grab hold of another trying to stay in
but i wont let you
hacking my terminal attempting to stay
intending to upset me
but here i go pressing the cleanse button
getting rid of you
restoring to my original state
protecting myself against another attack
so you never return to infect me
putting a password on my incoming traffic line
filtering my processes terminating you
and defragmenting all the unwanted things about you
begone i do not want you...yet...

QuikNote1

with the constant vibe
the melodic boom from the bass
the chime of the synths
to the incesant cry of the voice
I can't seem to distance myself
how do i make my way out?
life the endless waiting job
busy running to and from tables
not remembering to stop and breathe
not notice the small changes
over filling the plate
where do you begin?
always standing in the same places
always seeing a new face
the tall, the short
the long to little
being enticed by the many
and i mean many different arromas
well my time is up
there goes my NYC train ride

The Crave

If there were different options
I'd take em
on this exam only given
A, B, C, and D sometimes E
what about the other choices?
what about those dicisive factors
where not everything is set in stone?
standing at the fork in the road
having to choose either A or B
trying to go down the middle
but feverishly blocked by myself
trying to live how i want to live
but pulled to one side for others views
trying to please their aspirations
neglecting my own
but no more
what the heart craves the mind destroys
getting too held onto i brush it off
then realizing my fault
retaliate on myself the abuse deserved
cut away the ties that bind me to this thing
the one consistantly driving thing
plauguing my very existance
forcibly scorning it
disregarding all attention it seeks
daily throwing it into limbo
not wanting it to achieve its desire
crippling you i begin to wonder why do it?
Solitude is my minds ambition
While the lust of my heart wants the silhouette
standing beside me...

Thought Clarity 1

This clouds that fill my head right now are almost intoxicating
thoughts upon thoughts with no solid solution
solution upon solution ever so eluding me
this isn't just another piece with things that run through my head
these are the thoughts that plague my mind
tormenting me on a daily basis
6 weeks till the end of things
where do i begin to prepare for the end?
what in the hell am i going to do once everything is completely set in stone?
why does this have to happen to me right now when things are lookin up for me?
Sigh...
Fuck...
you kno what, i think it should be good for me though
Hmmm...
School, god i wish i didnt have to go back, lord knows all i wanna do is just work
Work heavens i hate it but love it...just not one of them that i have now
how you gimme shit, then try to kiss my ass to kiss your ass?!
really?! thats what we do now?
damn...all the ppl that mainly mattered to me is now about to be left behind
and the things that i know and figure as normal are about to change
i'm goin to miss the faces, places and memories i have here, and im goin to have to find and make new ones?
ehh too much work, maybe ill just become a loner...
maybe ill find some way to actually open up when things start over
maybe i wont
Shit...
why can't my head finally get clear?
why do i not care much anymore?
Damnit...eff it im jus gonna leave with a blast, gonna lose people that i could care less about
gonna strengthen those that i do
and those in the middle...
yea those are gonna be shown the gray zone and get themselves filtered out
So this is jus a fraction of all things runnin through my head, for now ill end this, mayb my nxt post will be sumthin more interesting

Bullet out...

The Uncontrollable Deceit

As I sit here downing this intoxicating chemical
The vision becomes blurry
Senses dull
And memory fades
Reclining in this chair
Beginning the thinking process
Should I have said that?
Did it make sense to not just tell her the truth?
Just admitting that small factor could have possibly
And I stress possibly kept us together
But what do I do now that she's gone?
Should I have just told her about that one night
That one female
That one drunken stupid mistake...
No
Telling her flat out would have been even worse
But how do I deal with this guilt?
Damn I effed up
But telling her that I ran into Steph
My ex
at the bar with the guys
And ended up in the back seat of my car
Definitely not a good idea
Tho I love Sammy with all my heart
I can't believe I did this to her
I'm never drinking again...
But wait
Why didn't the guys stop me?
I thought they had my back?
Damn I guess giving Jamal a shiner
Was no incentive for him to stop me...
Damn
What do I do now?

Omg omg omg omg
Did I really do that with Kevin?!
Omg what would he think of me if I had just told him
If I had just told him that my homegirls
Wanted me to try weed for the first time
With a guy they know
Omg omg *shakes head*
now I see that it's true that things affect EVERYONE differently
But damn I didn't even know him
Shit so I tell him?
No
Dave would be pissed!
Would he even hit me out of anger?
damn I hope not
I love him so much tho
Would he have understood better if I told him?

*Two years later*
Sad to say I'm still sitting here in the same spot
Different chair
Same thought different day
Still sipping on this impairment
Wondering why we're not together
Jasmine told me what she did with Kevin
And I can't believe I raised my hand to hit her
Tho I caught myself and didn't
I almost could've landed myself in jail!
But how...
HOW did she know about me and Steph?!
I made sure to find a great excuse for not coming home
A damn good reason for even walking in the door smelling like a woman
But every bit of my story she saw right through it...
How?!
Just my dumb luck
I had to have slipped up on the details from a few days prior
Ahh am I a asshole

Can you believe it Marisol
It's already been two years since that fateful day
Two years since I broke away from your daddy
He thinks it was all his fault
Tho Jamal told me about the incident with Steph
I would've stayed with him
But when he found out about Kevin from jasmine
He blew a fuse
There was no conversation
No reconciliation
To be sure nothing ever happened I left and never looked back
Man do I wonder if he thinks about me
He doesn't know about you
If he did he would probably disown you
But I don't know that for sure
If only I could tell him now.

With this scenario at it's end.
Sammy and Dave
Have not only ended up highly under the influence of some inhibitor
But have also cheated on each other I the process
Had the two actually sat down and spoken about it like reasonable like they are Dave wouldn't be drinking himself silly
And Sammy wouldn't be a single mother
Had they both sat down like the adults they were
Could the two of them worked out their differences
Yea they could have
Tho trust shattered on both ends of willing and able
It could have been rebuilt
But due to the deceit of both parties
They followed what only be considered uncontrolled anger
For their actions
And did not control the truth of THEIR words
To mean something above and beyond..
For they were to be wed
But no more

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

trash v2

hi
every 2 seconds a person gets rid of some sort of trash
now I know you see what's going on around you
and there's the fact that trash.
doesn't go anywhere.
now I know what you're thinking
"bullet trash is unavoidable?
Yes it is.
particularly when it comes to those around you doesn't it
some of you reading know what I mean
while you cavemen before the wheel readers reading should grasp what I mean
when this is over
so here's a PSA for EVERYONE
to prevent the accumulation of trash in your vicinity

do you feel like one of your friends is considered trash?
Let's observe as this "friend" enters a room
"Hey it's me the bad one what up bitches sexiness is here"
and FREEZE
now. does every head turn and everything that was in process completely stop just for that one friend?
Does not one person in the bunch say
"ok nice entrance thanks for the interruption."
Does your convo get completely dropped with no rekindling approach?
then say hello to your litely trashy friend.

not convinced?
hmm
ahh try this
think the person you're with might be trashy?
bring them around your closest friends
is a majority give them a certain look and eventually tug you aside to "talk" it could be a sign. and you know that not only your partner is trash but also your friend if they end up hooking up.
Now that ladies and gents.
is trash.

Now I can understand if you might be reading this next to someone you consider a close friend and have at this point stopped reading and instantly looked at them more than once.
for this I apologize
With prolonged exposure to said trash there are chances that you too can develop serious symptoms of being trashy, worst case scenario is the acquisition of the assholeology following.
Symptoms of assholeology include
-random bitch fits
-constant one night stands
-wanting any person that any of your friends want and/or are with
-pushing away of people you once considered friends
-developments of OCD
-and finally complete social destruction

so with that being said I hope your eyes are open ladies and gents
just know that trash does not disappear nor can it be changed.
it is handled in many ways and by many hands (and by many, I mean MANY) hands.
Well hopefully at this point we all understand that trash is always amongst you
and your thinking twice about the company you keep.
Just get rid of them.
it's so easy a caveman like yourself can do it

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

Trash (Bee's version)

Since I'm starting to get really annoyed with what's going on around me, I think this is an appropriate PSA time for some folks who don't know about.....Trash. Trash has always been the most detectable thing that whatever you believe started on this planet. If you saw it you knew what it was. You scrunched up your face, quickly walked away, and while doing so murmur under your breath "someone needs to take that trash where it belongs." Unfortunately for some, which is slowly becoming most, Trash has evolved into something more powerful then it ever was. There are only a select few people left that can spot Trash when they see it. Now for those who CAN'T spot Trash, let me present you with some examples so that hopefully YOU TOO can move the trash that is in your way.

Let's say, for instance, you suspect one of your friends is Trash. Observe how people react to them. If you notice that all of the attention goes directly to that person when they come in the room and instead of ignoring it, they feed into like its nourishment...chances are you have Trash amongst you. And if you think that your spouse might be Trash, take them around your closest friends. If at least 70% of them think you should watch out, gives a dirty look, and then immediately stops talking to you, chances are you are amongst Trash.

Now I understand how hard this might be to read, as the person who you are closest to might be Trash. For that, I would like to give my sincerest apologies. But trust me, this is for your own good. Prolonged exposure to Trash can lead to serious ailments, the worst of which being Assholeitus. You will start to push away the little amount of friends you have left and soon, will start thinking that you can change Trash into something else. But let me tell you this right now....Trash will always be just that....trash. Trash does not disappear with another persons touch, it might be moved from one location to the next, handled by many (and I do mean many) different hands...but if it was Trashy before it will ALWAYS be trashy. So hopefully while everyone reads this you will start to think twice about the people you encounter and always remember....Trash is always amongs you!

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

Clarity of the Veil

Every day you open your eyes
Be grateful that it isn't your last
At 21 the world is ahead of you
Tho we go thru struggles
Tho recessive times
We should always strive
Strive for more than what we have
And more than what we had
For life in it's infinite ideas
Has finite time
Harboring grudges
Useless
Seeding viruses
Pointless
Wandering aimlessly
Non-recommended
But what happens when
You hold a small thought
And that small idea
Begins to manifest itself
Into your consciousness
Eating away at your every concept
Gnawing at your very existence
Fighting to rid the very existence
Of the beating heart
Searching for something
To begin anew
Yet contemplating rekindling an old flame
One that was never truly extinguished
Just put to the back burner
Slowly and steadily cooking
Stewing up a work of art
Wanting to taste this delicacy
Yet afraid to burn my tongue
Do I take the risk touching the pot?
In doing so
Will I not scorch my hands
Of past memories
The clarity of this choice is very low
Taking an unfathomable toll on the senses
I want to be part of my creation
Tho wondering of my ludicrous conception
I stir quietly seeing the ugly truth
That your culinary uniqueness
Is what my desires are now trying to embrace

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPod touch]

Induction

Welcome to life
how are you doing ladies and gentlemen?
So you all should know
this is the thing you shape and mold
the thing that will give you headaches
and heartaches
with the many ups and downs that you shall experience
no matter what
tho it may seem invisible at times there will always
*Clears throat*
let me repeat ladies and gentlemen
ALWAYS be that person watching you
ALWAYS expecting too much
ALWAYS loving the little things
ALWAYS stressing the simple
but there is always the person that will
BE THERE FOR YOU
So don't watch the ground
keep your head high
have your ears plugged from the negative
and your eyes searching towards the sky
because standing alone may seem heavy
there is the silhouette of the person
destined to be there, there
So find your road
and traverse it
and do so with a smile
tho this thing we all share in common
Life
may seem like forever
it is a lot shorter than we think
Live strong
Live live
Live for today
to guarantee tomorrow
ALWAYS keep at least one foot ahead of the other
so you don't fall at all the misconceptions
so you don't fall on the little trips
so you don't fall for the wrong
But you fall for all the right reasons
Make sure you influence life like rain
to be beautiful at all the perfect moments
But lastly
You MUST induce YOUR mind to let go of the past
tho cliche at this point
Give yourself some incentive
Induce your own inception of serenity. . .

DEDICATED TO CRISSY, NARIAH N JONATHAN

Serenity

Convening with this chair
whose to say your actually sitting there?
are your eyes open?
and your mind elopin'?
floating away to some distant place
drifting at a simple pace
what's this driving silence
does your heart have its license?
waking up is this world real?
I know exactly how to make you feel
wondering where my subconscious has brought me
going deeper I'm more likely to see
all the thing I'd want in my view
laughing at all the thing this place can spew
getting to this very spot
thus begins my lovely plot
with a snap of my finger
many feelings begin to linger
It's time to lime
and drop the rhymes
welcome to my dream
which is only whipping up steam
feeling the kick you open your eyes which world is this?
is it still one of your fantasies?
No you recognize all the familiar things
going about your day you see the expected faces
and the the typical thing
close off the world
click the remote which commences the music
tranquil and soothing
venturing out to your soundtrack
you find that silhouette by your side
in the midst of the community
you go deep fishing
trying to hold onto this reality
Tick Tock said the clock as time flew by
nothing went wrong
you find that much needed and sought after comfort
life became smiles and giggles
but something felt off
you have then realized that you have implanted your first inception
finding your way home
closing off this beautiful section of your thoughts
Reawakening
grunting at the initial dismay
only to come to terms that inception was its false name
for it was Deja Vu
because the silhouette of your dreams
lies happily beside you
sitting still in this serenity
You smile.

Beginnings Of A Samurai

The senses that come to mind
will be neglected
sticking around only for me
searching high and low
my adventure forcibly put on hold
Serendipity
Wonderful word
yet a true curse
finding that right person
Impossible
throwing in the towel
giving up
not feeling the urge to compete anymore
i'm through
only now feeling your embrace
the softness of your voice
entangled in your beauty
i let myself go
returning to blackness
numbness
for you are not mine nor am i yours
deep contemplation cut from my consciousness
i've become a wandering samurai
moving from place to place with no expectation
searching aimlessly for only the unobtainable
I begin my journey, standing alone
and walking even more alone
solely to myself and no one else
trudging into the sunset
fleeing from the sunrise. . .

Rediscovery

The wonders that stroll through my consciousness
When I open my mouth there are no words
Just my mind spewing my imagination
Through trials I gain inspiration
In faults I see marvels
Do I confuse you?
For in this mind there is good and evil
You say I inspire
All I do is give your ideas a face lift
You say I motivate you
All I do is give your motif a jump start
Some say I captivate
I only release a mental picture of my depth
Always hungry for more
Eating darkness and nurturing the light
Those of you who think lowly of me
Continue to do so
For Karma floats both ways
The more you dislike me
The more you shun me
The more you vindicate me. . .
I grow more and more creative
I grow more and more vigilant
I grow more and more Fortified. . .
So now that you have entered my realm
And at this end of this piece. . .
Where can you feel your mind going?

The Matters Of You

Do you realize
That from beginning to end
The gift that is there to be give
Will never be received
From time to time
I have conspired against myself
Dedicated myself
To myself
Through this veil of deception
Deceiving myself
Cutting myself with this invisible razor
Stubbing my toe on the curb of life
You don't trip into my mind
Only a topic of my life when I'm pissed
You are the reason I don't believe in L
Yet never wanting to let you go
I contain you like a hyperactive child
Smother you in the dark depths of life
Writing about L in the physical sense
Is not what this is
I'm going on about the heart. . .
My heart. . .
This love hate relationship we share
When calm and steady I find it the best
When racing not pacing itself
I wish to show you great disrespect
But since I'm yours and you're mine
I can only give you the best
So who will be worthy of obtaining you?

Summer Epiphony

Cool breeze
Shuddery nights
Rolling over wishing my arm touched you
Where are you?
Of course your not there
Twas only a dream
With eyes closed a fantasy
What would it take to make you a reality?
This way I'm feeling I wonder
Could you feel even remotely close?
Hmm. . .
The things going through my head
I don't feel like I have a space in yours
maybe I do. . .
Time shall tell
if I could wake to see yours face
That I would actually give you my heart
Since I don't want to give it to anyone else. . .
My dream girl.

The End of The Beginning

Where to start. . .
How about the end?
When things seemed bleak
You were always there
Not like a haunting spirit
But an encouraging one
Where my memory failed
Yours persevered
Through all the hard times
The times
Always reliable
The ONLY person i could count on
So where are you?
On vacation you say
For how long?
Like a deer in the headlights
I have no idea what to do. . .
With all these temptations
With all these decisions
How do i siphon through them?
Feeling incomplete
I wonder if I can do it all alone
Yes. . .I have to. . .
With the veil off my eyes
Making my own choices
I don't just have to be strong
I NEED to be
At 21 I HAVE to be man enough
Man enough to deal with all
All that is thrown at me
So if this is a farewell
All I can say is thank you
It was fun
All the things that were blurry
you put in high res
So yes I think I will say farewell
I appreciate all you did for me
All the things you carried me through
I'll try to keep you handle intact
Farewell Bullet
Giving me back full control
I'll be a careful dude
The dude I'm supposed to be. . .
Rich

The Throw Off

The Invisible becomes visible
As i play with these words
Like Tetris everything falling into place
I see through the lies
Nullify the pain
Bypass the anger
I sit and watch my movie with all the memorable parts
For I am the director you can never shoot me
Your lives are in my palms my cute play things
As master of my trade i direct your outcome
And produce your emotion
Oh wait you didn't know you were part of my cast?
With all the suspense and drama I thought you knew!
Running my film with these hidden cameras called my eyes
Showing the world your lucrative ways
What makes you think signing the dotted lines mattered?
Thoughts of you filled my script
Then disappeared into the dark abyss
For I KNOW thoughts of me do not exist
So here is my first step Acceptance,
You shall be cut from my final print
Step two, letting go on your managers connection
So you can no longer reach me
Now I wait for the new star of my movie to appear.

THE 500TH ESSENTIAL MIX!

Welcome again ladies and gentlemen. This week the essential mix is celebrating their 500th set of Dj's playing on the worlds largest DJ tables.

The Dj's that have been selected to play are

"Aeroplane"!

followed by host

"Pete Tong"
"Sasha"
"Richie Hawtin"

NOW this celebration mix is extra amazing because it is quite extended with each DJ doing their own miniset.

Here is a link to listen as well as download this mix as a whole.
http://er7radio.net/

Here is a link to download/listen to each dj separately
http://deepgoa.wordpress.com/2010/04/24/pete-tong-richie-hawtin-sasha-essential-mix-500th-bbc-radio-1-live-circus-liverpool-24-04-2010/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+wordpress%2Fdeepgoa+%28DEEPGOA%27s+Electronic+Sessions%29

Enjoi yourselves till next week where we have "Breakage" coming to the turntables. BYE!

Contemplation

Scientific senses arise
Contemplating my choices
Always forming my life experiments
Looking for the right outcome
I'm no doctor but I know the cure to my sickness
I got this diabetic high and you insolence isn't gonna help me
Circulating my blood pressure to battle a heart attack
I got the perfect prick to sever a main vain
With terminal can I sirs
i lock my doors to keep more therapy
Things used to be fun
Guess I got my antibody experience
Taking shots now giving them
Did you like my shock analysis?
Screaming Doc! and tore it all away
My patient is no more
My hypothesis correct
I can't treat you two more
I'm hanging you my coat
leaving this hospital
I hear the pages for me
But I'm off the clock
Sorry about this nothing personal
It's just time to discover those who need my attention.

Dying

Catch phrase of the year
Seeing all the different ways
Don't take my words literal
Just know that if your dying I'm gonna laugh
I'm looking at all the fakes with a smile
Life ain't hunky dory
But you're being a curious cat
The grass ain't greener
You skipping back and forth
Like a scratched CD
If you try to play my song
It's not gonna work
Sitting with my mind burning like a wild fire
This pen and paper are my extinguisher
What troubled me and fueled this
Is going no further like Smokey The Bear
Your dying! with those loud obnoxious actions
And the only thing getting burnt in the end is you
Now fall like a tree getting bulldozed by my words
And keep dying away cause I'm not resuscitating youDamn your dyin'

The Shadow

While sitting in this dark
Playing this set wondering
What really comes to me?
The inspiration that protrudes my mind
Boggles the ones around me
Stories in stories
Sipping my poison
The mind of this youth run a marathon
Spreading this Venom
Like Spider-man's nemesis
Webbing the competition
Eating them all as black widows do
Swinging around this steel city
Waiting for my next prey
Lurking through the night of day
From place to place
the villainous characters waiting for my failure
So why hide in my shadow in broad daylight
Thinking unnoticed with a head full of malice
I throw my screen of smoke and watch you search for me
Unannounced to you this silent knight has been observing
As i disappear back to my darkness
Silently expecting your return so I can cloud your judgment.

Gettin' Out

Seeing the break of day is always a blessing
But what if seeing that next day was surely not guaranteed?
From house to house
Project to project
Slumps to the dumps
What really prevents the breath of tomorrow?
We as a people do so
Who said people from the hood can't make it?
There are many of the few that see the death
Know the crime
Live the truth
And make it. . .
Throwing around these statistics
To shun those that have ideas and dreams
To make something bigger and better
Yet encourage those that don't wish to strive
With all these known things
What's really stopping the mouse from the cheese?

With Wings Fly

If love gave me wings I don't think I'd fly
If hope gave me dreams they would turn to nightmares
If I had that silver lining I'd watch it turn gray
These are the thoughts of a pessimist
With optimism there is a side to all dark's
That light can shine through all
The only things that shines brighter than out own personal light
Is the shadows of others' views
Their judgment as strangers to your joy
Should not be a factor to fuel our fear
What would be the purpose of saying
"reach forth and grab hold of your dreams"
If only to be ridiculed for achieving them?
So reach forth and don't just break the mold
Destroy the whole thing.

Ferry Corsten Essential Mix

Well this begins the week that I post a new essential mix link every week that one is released. the first link will be the link to the radio station directly so anyone can listen to the mix the second link[s] will be places that you can either download, or download/listen at the same time.

Essential Mixes are purely experimental, completely raw, uncut, uncensored, and just like thay say in the mix "If you may feel offended SWITCH OFF NOW"

So without further reading and waiting here are the links.

Direct listen --> http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b006wkfp


Download and tracklistings --> http://deepgoa.wordpress.com/2010/04/17/ferry-corsten-essential-mix-bbc-radio-1-17-04-2010/

Enjoi the mix. ill post links to all the amazing mixes that are must haves from the past few months.

Nostrand To Utica

The world is a tricky place
where the sky is blue
and some oceans are green
the chance that something spectacular to happen
are one in a billion
so what makes this piece any different?
the simple fact that one word can change a life
one greeting can make a day
and one departure can tear a heart
for instance friendship
it is one word that is thrown around
and everyone is friends with anyone
but what really makes a friend?
one word
Commitment
this one word can change a life
in the sense that if you become committed
you are expected to almost always be there
just like your senses and your family
but when that commitment is broken
and a heart is torn
where does that leave you?

Serendipity

Waking daily to bird chirping
Vehicles in motion
Mass transit in full effect
What are the odds?
The odds that the universe spins in your favor?
That one day changed everything
made things so much more profound
The smell of the flowers
The feel of the cool breeze brushing your hair
Your entrancing gaze slowed time
Just as our eyes locked contact
1 second. . .
2 seconds. . .
3 seconds. . .
Just like that everything froze.
Asking your name you graciously
So delicately placed your hand into mine
Reveling something something small and cute
Skin so soft like silk
Voice as quiet as a mouse
and just like that you were gone
Thinking that seeing you again would be right
stumbling into you as abruptly as you left
with no exchange of words
My quest for you only now beginning
but so abruptly cut short
Searching with no results
it was over
Then by some freak occurrence
or a teaser from the skies your name
as simple as it may be
bounced back and forth through my vicinity
This making me wonder what could have been
wanting to begin my search
which so suddenly stopped
but this is no movie
just real life as i sit back
contemplating seeing you
my next Serendipity.

War Torn Emotions

I went from play thing to playin' things
Makin' moves to clear my insanity
Waking to my future
Glaring at my past wondering why
How things became so perplexed
For my mind ran like a river
My body cried oceans
My eyes dry like deserts
The heart ready to explode
But I repressed it
The invisible emotion that blinded my thinking
Was swept away with one sip of this poison
With the expectation of confessions
to seep from my lips
There were none
With the thought of this liquid falling
From these dry ducts
there were none
With the passing of seasons
secretly sipping my own poison every chance I got
All for what?
Opening the door to the house of L
Years, months, weeks, days
Hours, minutes, seconds...breaths
All taken with no remorse
And what do you do?
Smile as if it were all fun
Joke as if nothing occurred
Everything came in and disappeared
Losing humanity and becoming a black-hole
Anger, fear, joy, sorrow
All touch and go
The crack that was so long desired
Finally obtained
The humanity returned to this creature
And just as fast as you came
You were gone...
"if you care for something let it go and it is meant for you it shall return"
In letting this go, do I wish for your return?
How much more time was I to keep looking through this dirty window?
Clean your eyes before you try to clean the glass