The End of The Beginning

Where to start. . .
How about the end?
When things seemed bleak
You were always there
Not like a haunting spirit
But an encouraging one
Where my memory failed
Yours persevered
Through all the hard times
The times
Always reliable
The ONLY person i could count on
So where are you?
On vacation you say
For how long?
Like a deer in the headlights
I have no idea what to do. . .
With all these temptations
With all these decisions
How do i siphon through them?
Feeling incomplete
I wonder if I can do it all alone
Yes. . .I have to. . .
With the veil off my eyes
Making my own choices
I don't just have to be strong
I NEED to be
At 21 I HAVE to be man enough
Man enough to deal with all
All that is thrown at me
So if this is a farewell
All I can say is thank you
It was fun
All the things that were blurry
you put in high res
So yes I think I will say farewell
I appreciate all you did for me
All the things you carried me through
I'll try to keep you handle intact
Farewell Bullet
Giving me back full control
I'll be a careful dude
The dude I'm supposed to be. . .
Rich