The End of The Beginning

Where to start. . .
How about the end?
When things seemed bleak
You were always there
Not like a haunting spirit
But an encouraging one
Where my memory failed
Yours persevered
Through all the hard times
The times
Always reliable
The ONLY person i could count on
So where are you?
On vacation you say
For how long?
Like a deer in the headlights
I have no idea what to do. . .
With all these temptations
With all these decisions
How do i siphon through them?
Feeling incomplete
I wonder if I can do it all alone
Yes. . .I have to. . .
With the veil off my eyes
Making my own choices
I don't just have to be strong
I NEED to be
At 21 I HAVE to be man enough
Man enough to deal with all
All that is thrown at me
So if this is a farewell
All I can say is thank you
It was fun
All the things that were blurry
you put in high res
So yes I think I will say farewell
I appreciate all you did for me
All the things you carried me through
I'll try to keep you handle intact
Farewell Bullet
Giving me back full control
I'll be a careful dude
The dude I'm supposed to be. . .
Rich

The Throw Off

The Invisible becomes visible
As i play with these words
Like Tetris everything falling into place
I see through the lies
Nullify the pain
Bypass the anger
I sit and watch my movie with all the memorable parts
For I am the director you can never shoot me
Your lives are in my palms my cute play things
As master of my trade i direct your outcome
And produce your emotion
Oh wait you didn't know you were part of my cast?
With all the suspense and drama I thought you knew!
Running my film with these hidden cameras called my eyes
Showing the world your lucrative ways
What makes you think signing the dotted lines mattered?
Thoughts of you filled my script
Then disappeared into the dark abyss
For I KNOW thoughts of me do not exist
So here is my first step Acceptance,
You shall be cut from my final print
Step two, letting go on your managers connection
So you can no longer reach me
Now I wait for the new star of my movie to appear.