thoughts tht run through the mind all seem so vague in comparison to the reality of life and how inadequate everything and everyone else seems, the only way to live and be alive is to be cold, numb and uncaring...thts how the world is and thts how the disc spins in the player...
though the extremities of our thoughts are not known in the present the idea we carry precede our inevitable fates, things that can be, succeed and things that should be, fail...so why does the minds eye show us our future and the body's actions conflict? in this world of opposite attraction it seems inaccurate to say this as a fact when it is proven to be an opinion.
the days are passing by ever so slowly like the tortoise and the hare, where time is moving ever so slowly and the body is waiting patiently...while the heart is running fast and the mind is speeding through the streets. having the longing for the sight like a baby for its mother, and the touch like a worker with his tools. though my thoughts may confuse, my words clarify and all is good in the end.
as the final hours begin to dwindle down the heart beats faster, the stomach gets light, the mind wanders, the ears don't listen the eye's don't care to see much else but the one desire you have...as you get closer and closer nothing matters but that touch, the sensation and mutual feeling...
twisting and turning, singing and crying, all these things are a model life coming together and drifting apart a part of the circles of attraction, going the extra mile, saying not from the heart...but with the heart...becoming blind to everyone else, and being happy and not only true to them...but true to yourself...now that...is what L is...welcome back L...it's been a while...
living is a part of life and so is dreaming, while sleeping you have those deep passionate fantasies, while day dreams feel like life is moving in every way you want it to. until you snap back a realize that time hasn't gone anywhere, you haven't gone anywhere. so instead of smiling at day dreams wishing time passed even quicker, i'll close my eyes and have my fantasies take control of my mind for a while Est. 7.4.09
welcome to world of L and its uncontrollable urges, when did you first fall in love with hip hop? I been in love with you since the first day I saw you...and I love you still...I was just scared to say so...and I don't wanna just be your friend no more...[Est. 7.4.09]
the clock is ticking, yet nothing is moving. Sitting here eyes closed the mind knows you're far, but the body feels every touch, kiss and breath you breathe...so why open the eyes and forfeit this dream? because in only a short time it will be real [Est. 7.4.09]
3 birds. you let them all go. 1st comes back but u don't care, 2nd confused comes + goes, 3rd u didn't expect back and cherish the most...roughly 36hours to my happiness number 3 [Est. 7.4.09].
metrocard: $4.50, trip to c my gf: $22, food for the weekend: $20-30, havin a great weekend: priceless...[Est. 7.4.09]
ever been in so close and deep that every time ur there nothin can go wrong even if it does...an every time u let go of their hand for thw fateful depart it gets harder an harder...this is the world of L [Est. 7.4.09]
Interesting nite, slow morning, steady afternoon. grabbin more motivation gotta keep in motion bypassing all those watching with failing expectations. what i do expect is to stand ontop of that stage with all the onlookers cheering me on, congratulating me. Shaking that random gentlemans hand seeing you out in the crow...d with a marvelous smile upon your face. . .put both my arms in the air and shed a tear. Graduation.
The Smile is not invisible. it's just not visible to the standard human eye. To know me and understand my logic. You would have to be me. or be close enough to fully grasp my thoughts.
Through all the thoughs tht run thru my mind, and all the different things i hear
n see. You are the one I can c myself with over all. now tht i kno tht
ive even been relatively on ur mind i shall try harder to see u like i should
hav an hav been doin for quite some time. Will you be my motivation
to push fwd even more? as i play my Fav artist ill definitely contact u
more than i hav now =]
