Chasing Amy Syndrome

Ever just go through a regular do with no expectations?
Of course you have
Ever wake up in the morning wondering what you're doing with your life?
More than likely
Walked down that usual street then see what you consider a beautiful woman
Definitely
Now you soak with this person
Get to know them and things seem magically right
Progression from talking to mingling
Mingling to dating
Dating to a full on relationship
Wonderful
Length of this relationship doesn't matter
Completely irrelevant
This wondrous woman doesn't seem so right for some reason
Things begun to crumble
Experience difference is immense
Building a bridge between you
You begin to push her away
Not coping with the alternate views
Breakage
Time passes
Longing for their attention becomes staggering
You miss her
Crave her
Desire her touch
Her perfect form in your arms
Sweet scent
Soft voice
Beautiful smile
Pleasant times together
You can't move on
You try to act real strong
Now you could say that you don't love her anymore
And you can say you've close the door on your love
And went your separate ways
But I would be the same cause love won't be the same
So you want her back cause your love is still on your brain
But won't get her back
So you're just chasing a ghost of your past

Mental Clarity

Ingesting my poison
inhaling my venom
my mind cannot seem to stop
always constantly moving
not knowing where to end
in order to obtain the finish
you must know where to begin
with completely unclear intentions
I begin this with the end
indecisiveness is a killer
blaring my music like sirens
i hear the shots of the bass
killing my ear drums
penetrating my consciousness
longing for the one thing that can intently cure me
not looking for for the solution for my problem
i hesitate
confusion sets in
seeing a series of events with an unsure conclusion
not understanding the outcome
i feel like running
desiring a finish to the madness
i'm speechless
ingesting my choices
not willing to choose from the masses
i want to escape
letting my thoughts flow
like a spring river thawing out
from impassable mountains
i stop
traversing my mind
where am i supposed to go?
running through this marathon of inventions
i patent not a single one to reality
so many outcomes
i've made a fool of myself
misdirecting myself
i sit back an reminisce on my life at this point
hurting myself
i press forward
wanting to fast forward past the bad parts
destruction
insomnia setting in
craving the release from myself
internally torturing myself
searching for a release from the madness
i put on my mask
covering my own concern
warping and distorting my own reality
hoping to discover something new in my chaos
but only uncovering my own estrange past
not intending to backtrack
unwillingly doing so
wheres my other half when needed?
invisible
new state new beginnings
same outcome, different events
returning to my poison consumption
venom inhalation
excavating for my answer
i sit in silence
burying myself with the sand blowing over everything i've uncovered
indecisiveness
my tranquil escape from myself
going to the sky
only in disdaining my return to sanity
leaping back to my minds outskirts
to get away from me
sailing on my illuminated path
that is eternal
never ending
consuming me
i plot a path into the unknown...

Critical Thinking

Anyone can think
but it takes a great mind to project
thoughts are just that thoughts
but thoughts with vision, clarity
are powerful
having the ability foresee the unknown
that would be crucial to survival
just how does one come in tune with this critical thought process?
sit back, relax
clear the mind of all the poisons that infect it
distort it
destroy it
a persons greatest villain is themselves
a persons greatest and worst critic is themselves
it takes a strong person to see their views and introduce others
at the same time to incorperate which would be superior
and which would blend to produce something completely unique

Fresh Start

Here I am
New state, new people
where do i begin?
times being as hard as they are
how do i initiate contact?
i got it, first education then empoyment
yeah, thats what i'm used to

after months of searching
scowering the area for a scrap of something
to begin working with
i get something small
can't complain

now here i sit intoxicating your mind with my words
freshening myself up to something new
like a moth to a flame
i am entangled by these words
trying to build life out of ashes
just like that beautful pheonix
again i rise up and go forward unto a brighter
fresher start

Stickers

I am Something you see all the time
Yet pay little attention to
As a child I was the one thing
That everyone desired
What happened?
Coming in different shapes and sizes
Completely different from all others
Yet so unique and original
The one thing that put a smile on faces
And completely redefined feelings
Being able to put me on just about anything
Sadly only once
It didn't matter where I was always happy
As you got older so did I
The use for me dwindled
The thought of me erased
But then again with maturity
You remember me
Look at me years later and begin to smile
With the final peeling off from my location my job complete.
Content my life of being able to bring you joy
I make my farewell until someone else can do the same again for you
This is a note from me to you
Love,
Stickers
Always around when you need excitement.

Intimate Minds Sensual Vision

The beginning is always the hardest part. So many thoughts racing overhead not knowing the start from the finish. But the feeling is all that remains. Lingering like a plume of smoke in an enclosed room.
Yearning for you like I'm dreaming of air.
Thinking, contemplating, fantasizing.
Wanting to see your face, which sparkles like a star filled night with the moon glistening through mu window. Your sight magical
Your smile illuminating my very eyes, giving me that glorious feeling.
The constant scent of your J. Cherry Blossom filling my nostrils, intoxicating my lungs.
grasping your body the sweet curves engulfing my hands like the perfect object, I hold on.
Gently caressing your smooth brown skin, beautiful as a supreme sculpture, a visual masterpiece.
Skin touching mine, the warmth smothering my nerve end, enticing my every sensation.
Being blinded by your clothes, though nice, slowly removed.
Tangling my lips to your flesh, tasty, irresistible.
The thought of stopping erased.
Going from top to bottom, embracing your heartbeat.
Knowing your every spot, thrilling your every sensation.
Fighting the urge to stop, i press on, grasping the title, making you understand my every reason to hold it a surprise.
Going in your body heat escalating, your sweet moans speeding my hearts pace.
Going and going pleasing your every need and desire.
Taking each other to ecstasy, we both feel the extravagance of this time we have.
Waking to see you next to me is one of my only driving forces.
Being only the things that dance a party on my brain. Anxiety building, craving for you only growing stronger...
Only wanting you.

Words to a woman

the glowing white moon began to turn dark with the shadow of the earth, then hints of copper emerged covering the corners of the moon making it seem like an eye watching humanity in all its trials and tribulations.

wise words from a young man have cleared a veil of deceit for the truth to be revealed, no longer staining the mind, now all that is to be done is to set forth and start a new, with a clear head, and willing heart so someone worthy of obtaining it shall appear and create a level of joy and prosperity for ages

Who shall this traveler be? maybe the one set to be beside you is closer that it seems. hold fast for time will grant itself right when your knight in shining armor will bask in your beauty. and he will treat you like the goddess that you are.

New Beginnings

The time has drifted away
stirring daily to nothing but negativity
pushing happiness into my very being
growing more tired
yearning for that peace
the comfort long sought after
only momentarily obtaining
getting the blame for almost every and anything
i grow more and more tired
my level of disdain for this mundane life
reaching is limit
finally a release
the words were spoken and my world felt shattered
i grabbed the hands of despair and thought only of it
and how i can make the changes
to everything now thrown at me
i persevered
only to land myself BACK into the pit of snakes
again my upward strive started rolling downhill
yet you were there through it all
guiding me
now im here
starting fresh in this area outside my comfort zone
what will my future hold?
so far joy and pleasure which i longed for
yet another has come along in the midst of all this
feeling complete now unfinished
venturing off not bringing you with me
but i hold a piece of you with me at all times
and i hope you do the same
craving to be your knight in shining armor
so one day you can indulge yourself in joy
just as i am now
beginning a new life
yet keeping hints of your old persona
not wanting you to change
even if the world came to an end
Id want you beside me sharing it
feeling the warmth
embracing the truth
with these new beginnings