New Beginnings

The time has drifted away
stirring daily to nothing but negativity
pushing happiness into my very being
growing more tired
yearning for that peace
the comfort long sought after
only momentarily obtaining
getting the blame for almost every and anything
i grow more and more tired
my level of disdain for this mundane life
reaching is limit
finally a release
the words were spoken and my world felt shattered
i grabbed the hands of despair and thought only of it
and how i can make the changes
to everything now thrown at me
i persevered
only to land myself BACK into the pit of snakes
again my upward strive started rolling downhill
yet you were there through it all
guiding me
now im here
starting fresh in this area outside my comfort zone
what will my future hold?
so far joy and pleasure which i longed for
yet another has come along in the midst of all this
feeling complete now unfinished
venturing off not bringing you with me
but i hold a piece of you with me at all times
and i hope you do the same
craving to be your knight in shining armor
so one day you can indulge yourself in joy
just as i am now
beginning a new life
yet keeping hints of your old persona
not wanting you to change
even if the world came to an end
Id want you beside me sharing it
feeling the warmth
embracing the truth
with these new beginnings