QuikNote1

with the constant vibe
the melodic boom from the bass
the chime of the synths
to the incesant cry of the voice
I can't seem to distance myself
how do i make my way out?
life the endless waiting job
busy running to and from tables
not remembering to stop and breathe
not notice the small changes
over filling the plate
where do you begin?
always standing in the same places
always seeing a new face
the tall, the short
the long to little
being enticed by the many
and i mean many different arromas
well my time is up
there goes my NYC train ride

The Crave

If there were different options
I'd take em
on this exam only given
A, B, C, and D sometimes E
what about the other choices?
what about those dicisive factors
where not everything is set in stone?
standing at the fork in the road
having to choose either A or B
trying to go down the middle
but feverishly blocked by myself
trying to live how i want to live
but pulled to one side for others views
trying to please their aspirations
neglecting my own
but no more
what the heart craves the mind destroys
getting too held onto i brush it off
then realizing my fault
retaliate on myself the abuse deserved
cut away the ties that bind me to this thing
the one consistantly driving thing
plauguing my very existance
forcibly scorning it
disregarding all attention it seeks
daily throwing it into limbo
not wanting it to achieve its desire
crippling you i begin to wonder why do it?
Solitude is my minds ambition
While the lust of my heart wants the silhouette
standing beside me...

Thought Clarity 1

This clouds that fill my head right now are almost intoxicating
thoughts upon thoughts with no solid solution
solution upon solution ever so eluding me
this isn't just another piece with things that run through my head
these are the thoughts that plague my mind
tormenting me on a daily basis
6 weeks till the end of things
where do i begin to prepare for the end?
what in the hell am i going to do once everything is completely set in stone?
why does this have to happen to me right now when things are lookin up for me?
Sigh...
Fuck...
you kno what, i think it should be good for me though
Hmmm...
School, god i wish i didnt have to go back, lord knows all i wanna do is just work
Work heavens i hate it but love it...just not one of them that i have now
how you gimme shit, then try to kiss my ass to kiss your ass?!
really?! thats what we do now?
damn...all the ppl that mainly mattered to me is now about to be left behind
and the things that i know and figure as normal are about to change
i'm goin to miss the faces, places and memories i have here, and im goin to have to find and make new ones?
ehh too much work, maybe ill just become a loner...
maybe ill find some way to actually open up when things start over
maybe i wont
Shit...
why can't my head finally get clear?
why do i not care much anymore?
Damnit...eff it im jus gonna leave with a blast, gonna lose people that i could care less about
gonna strengthen those that i do
and those in the middle...
yea those are gonna be shown the gray zone and get themselves filtered out
So this is jus a fraction of all things runnin through my head, for now ill end this, mayb my nxt post will be sumthin more interesting

Bullet out...