Thought Clarity 1

This clouds that fill my head right now are almost intoxicating
thoughts upon thoughts with no solid solution
solution upon solution ever so eluding me
this isn't just another piece with things that run through my head
these are the thoughts that plague my mind
tormenting me on a daily basis
6 weeks till the end of things
where do i begin to prepare for the end?
what in the hell am i going to do once everything is completely set in stone?
why does this have to happen to me right now when things are lookin up for me?
Sigh...
Fuck...
you kno what, i think it should be good for me though
Hmmm...
School, god i wish i didnt have to go back, lord knows all i wanna do is just work
Work heavens i hate it but love it...just not one of them that i have now
how you gimme shit, then try to kiss my ass to kiss your ass?!
really?! thats what we do now?
damn...all the ppl that mainly mattered to me is now about to be left behind
and the things that i know and figure as normal are about to change
i'm goin to miss the faces, places and memories i have here, and im goin to have to find and make new ones?
ehh too much work, maybe ill just become a loner...
maybe ill find some way to actually open up when things start over
maybe i wont
Shit...
why can't my head finally get clear?
why do i not care much anymore?
Damnit...eff it im jus gonna leave with a blast, gonna lose people that i could care less about
gonna strengthen those that i do
and those in the middle...
yea those are gonna be shown the gray zone and get themselves filtered out
So this is jus a fraction of all things runnin through my head, for now ill end this, mayb my nxt post will be sumthin more interesting

Bullet out...