Rediscovery

The wonders that stroll through my consciousness
When I open my mouth there are no words
Just my mind spewing my imagination
Through trials I gain inspiration
In faults I see marvels
Do I confuse you?
For in this mind there is good and evil
You say I inspire
All I do is give your ideas a face lift
You say I motivate you
All I do is give your motif a jump start
Some say I captivate
I only release a mental picture of my depth
Always hungry for more
Eating darkness and nurturing the light
Those of you who think lowly of me
Continue to do so
For Karma floats both ways
The more you dislike me
The more you shun me
The more you vindicate me. . .
I grow more and more creative
I grow more and more vigilant
I grow more and more Fortified. . .
So now that you have entered my realm
And at this end of this piece. . .
Where can you feel your mind going?

The Matters Of You

Do you realize
That from beginning to end
The gift that is there to be give
Will never be received
From time to time
I have conspired against myself
Dedicated myself
To myself
Through this veil of deception
Deceiving myself
Cutting myself with this invisible razor
Stubbing my toe on the curb of life
You don't trip into my mind
Only a topic of my life when I'm pissed
You are the reason I don't believe in L
Yet never wanting to let you go
I contain you like a hyperactive child
Smother you in the dark depths of life
Writing about L in the physical sense
Is not what this is
I'm going on about the heart. . .
My heart. . .
This love hate relationship we share
When calm and steady I find it the best
When racing not pacing itself
I wish to show you great disrespect
But since I'm yours and you're mine
I can only give you the best
So who will be worthy of obtaining you?

Summer Epiphony

Cool breeze
Shuddery nights
Rolling over wishing my arm touched you
Where are you?
Of course your not there
Twas only a dream
With eyes closed a fantasy
What would it take to make you a reality?
This way I'm feeling I wonder
Could you feel even remotely close?
Hmm. . .
The things going through my head
I don't feel like I have a space in yours
maybe I do. . .
Time shall tell
if I could wake to see yours face
That I would actually give you my heart
Since I don't want to give it to anyone else. . .
My dream girl.

The End of The Beginning

Where to start. . .
How about the end?
When things seemed bleak
You were always there
Not like a haunting spirit
But an encouraging one
Where my memory failed
Yours persevered
Through all the hard times
The times
Always reliable
The ONLY person i could count on
So where are you?
On vacation you say
For how long?
Like a deer in the headlights
I have no idea what to do. . .
With all these temptations
With all these decisions
How do i siphon through them?
Feeling incomplete
I wonder if I can do it all alone
Yes. . .I have to. . .
With the veil off my eyes
Making my own choices
I don't just have to be strong
I NEED to be
At 21 I HAVE to be man enough
Man enough to deal with all
All that is thrown at me
So if this is a farewell
All I can say is thank you
It was fun
All the things that were blurry
you put in high res
So yes I think I will say farewell
I appreciate all you did for me
All the things you carried me through
I'll try to keep you handle intact
Farewell Bullet
Giving me back full control
I'll be a careful dude
The dude I'm supposed to be. . .
Rich

The Throw Off

The Invisible becomes visible
As i play with these words
Like Tetris everything falling into place
I see through the lies
Nullify the pain
Bypass the anger
I sit and watch my movie with all the memorable parts
For I am the director you can never shoot me
Your lives are in my palms my cute play things
As master of my trade i direct your outcome
And produce your emotion
Oh wait you didn't know you were part of my cast?
With all the suspense and drama I thought you knew!
Running my film with these hidden cameras called my eyes
Showing the world your lucrative ways
What makes you think signing the dotted lines mattered?
Thoughts of you filled my script
Then disappeared into the dark abyss
For I KNOW thoughts of me do not exist
So here is my first step Acceptance,
You shall be cut from my final print
Step two, letting go on your managers connection
So you can no longer reach me
Now I wait for the new star of my movie to appear.

THE 500TH ESSENTIAL MIX!

Welcome again ladies and gentlemen. This week the essential mix is celebrating their 500th set of Dj's playing on the worlds largest DJ tables.

The Dj's that have been selected to play are

"Aeroplane"!

followed by host

"Pete Tong"
"Sasha"
"Richie Hawtin"

NOW this celebration mix is extra amazing because it is quite extended with each DJ doing their own miniset.

Here is a link to listen as well as download this mix as a whole.
http://er7radio.net/

Here is a link to download/listen to each dj separately
http://deepgoa.wordpress.com/2010/04/24/pete-tong-richie-hawtin-sasha-essential-mix-500th-bbc-radio-1-live-circus-liverpool-24-04-2010/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+wordpress%2Fdeepgoa+%28DEEPGOA%27s+Electronic+Sessions%29

Enjoi yourselves till next week where we have "Breakage" coming to the turntables. BYE!

Contemplation

Scientific senses arise
Contemplating my choices
Always forming my life experiments
Looking for the right outcome
I'm no doctor but I know the cure to my sickness
I got this diabetic high and you insolence isn't gonna help me
Circulating my blood pressure to battle a heart attack
I got the perfect prick to sever a main vain
With terminal can I sirs
i lock my doors to keep more therapy
Things used to be fun
Guess I got my antibody experience
Taking shots now giving them
Did you like my shock analysis?
Screaming Doc! and tore it all away
My patient is no more
My hypothesis correct
I can't treat you two more
I'm hanging you my coat
leaving this hospital
I hear the pages for me
But I'm off the clock
Sorry about this nothing personal
It's just time to discover those who need my attention.